Have you ever felt pain that can choke you up more than swallowing an unchewed bone?
Before you know it, all your joy is gone
And all you feel is the emptiness, the darkness and sorrow of pain
You feel like a thunderstorm has been unleashed on your heart.
It will leave you soaked for life and everyone can see how you are not the same
It changes your image, your personality even your name
Oh pain
What are you trying to gain?
Am I really the one to blame?
I was born in this shame
Like I horse I have been stuck with this hame
I keep falling into a bottomless pit of confusion and suffering, I quickly lose any sense of direction
As I was never given any hope or indication
That I may be able to become someone of value
Be notable and able
Someone who will not only be a notable community resident
That I might even be future leader like a president
But I keep wondering if ever I can get over this abuse
Every day I relieve each moment of how I was used
I still hear his voice shout at me for no reason
As he would always remind each day that am not worth anything for any season
My cheeks feel the blows that raged my face on those dark nights
And how I could I fight for my case as I felt I had no rights
When a law enforcement officer himself breaks all laws
Then where else was I was supposed to get justice from all his blows?
It was pain yesterday, today and it seemed to last forever
Oh pain can someone vacuum it out of my life so I may be free
And be able to rise to become a better person, please someone help me flee
I need to go far and lose this distance
So that in life I may become a better reference
Can this really define who I will be for the rest of my life?
I need someone to help me fight and be able to strive
I used to be a successful wife
But my life was cut apart by this knife
Alas amidst all the pain, Its funny how change comes
One day as I was doing my reading these words struck me like lightening
"It only seem impossible until its done” by Nelson Mandela
For days I kept meditating upon them
It was clear to me that my life was in my hands, I had the key to open new doors and break old walls
One day I decide to own a life a and reign my own kingdom
As Oprah Winfrey said “turn your wounds into wisdom"
The words touched my life and I began to change
Like a daily newspaper I had changed my page
My story was different and I was filled with new color
They say time heals everything, what they don't tell you is that it pushes you out of your accepted realities and forces you to open your eyes and rediscover who you are.
With each passing day, with every tear shed, a new awakening dawns, and you soon discover that not all hope is lost. You discover your own strength and that in your hands lies the brush to paint with a new life.
Now I know pain cannot last forever unless you let it
It is up to every human to decide whether to make it or quit
But I have chosen to have a bright future
Pain does not last forever
Only I can put my life together
And soon I will go further
Yesterday does not define my tomorrow
I have shut out all my sorrow
Now and forever I have bright targets and I will start shooting straight my arrows
For I know I am more powerful than you know and I am are beautiful just as I am
I know use my experience to inspire others
My voice is my power
A candle losses nothing by lighting another
And I shall light up as many lives as possible by giving them hope
Letting them know that abuse does not define who you are
It is not your fault and you can escape the jaws of the perpetrator
No matter how much they threaten you one has to speak up
There is power when we stand as one against Domestic Violence